small lil me

2007-04-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

I MISS PAST YEARS!!
how fun will it be to go back to secondary school!!!
gosh

I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS!
keep in touch people!
meet up meet up meet up :D

PICTURES! (:

2007-03-31T20:11:00.000+08:00

getting wild on the plane back to singapore. CYA PPL! i'll be back! :)

isnt he adorable?
look alike?

hair bunning lesson
the results.. i want this car!

ORANGE BAG!!!!

they want me!!!! :D

mum's new hairstyle

the church

the first sunrise i ever saw!!!!

messy signboards..
seriously, they need a dictionary

memories i'll never forget

2007-03-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

muahahaha..
i decided to post something to utilise my blog! :)

just came back from holiday!
fun fun fun :D
even got to withness a sunrise on the plane! WEEEEEE`
its like heaven on the plane..
(i will post the pictures soon!)

to maureen,
you saw my 'BEST ' friend?
haha.. good luck man:p
ask him to bring you around the school! hehe..

grrr..
anyone studying the same course and faculty as me?

posting results :|

2007-03-06T11:51:00.000+08:00

was kind of disappointed when i saw my posting results [ chemical and biomolecular engineering ]
I WANT TO GO INTO PSYCHOLOGY! I WANTED IT BADLY!!
*ps psychology COP is 9 :s

i saw no hope, i began to give up
why didnt God put me in psychology?
was everything God's will?
i began to doubt Him. Should i ever trust him again?
i dont want any more false hopes.
why are the results everytime like this?
i'm tired..

i got lost in the game

2007-01-30T19:30:00.000+08:00

sad, depressed, crestfallen, low-spirited
i hit the rough patch in life once again.
why must all these happen to me?

1) mum threw my handbag at me this morning coz i told her not to use that one but use another one.
WTF. whats her problem man? what on earth did i do?
its really bad enough when i saw how biased you are towards lil brother.
[cook maggi mee for him and asked me to cook myself, cut pears for him to eat, bought a can of abalone especially for him,...]
you protected him, pampered him, and left me out in open, lonely, deprived of family love
when will you let me in? when will you think of me?
all you care about are my results!
HEY! i'm your flesh and blood too! why cant you just show a lil more concern for me?
i tried to tolerate, tolerate, tolerate, tolerate
guess everything just blew today.

2) friends in school are great!
its just the school as a whole SUX! sux totally!
full of school rules, so many tutorials, my lessons end so dam late in the day
theres hardly anytime to catch a breather! c'me on! its only the FIRST 3 months!
blame on my luck to get into the first (scholar) class
everyone is mugging and studying now (some even bought textbooks :s)
super scary,super stress!
and guess what? i got physics test on thursday and i know NOTHING about it :

today, my CT (form teacher) hes was like "Ting Yu, have i told you that the school does not accept parents letter?..... I want an excuse chit from the doctor, if not you have to come back for lectures later at 1. If you dont come back, i will call your parents."
WHAT? i am leaving school at 9 and you tell me to come back at 1?
GOSH. you are mad, insane
isit an obligation that i MUST listen to you? so what if you are my form teacher?
you sux man, metro-unsexual ;aint sexy, mr sissy!

my life is now down in the dumps man
why cant anyone comfort me?
hear my problems?
on the surface, i appear happy, deep down i have a broken soul..

farewell 2006!! WELCOME 2007 :))

2006-12-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

2006 is coming to an end..
This year had been hetic, rush, fast and of course lots of ups and downs, rollercoaster (like what they always say :)
Soon, i will be 1 year older! YES YES YES! more freedom, extended curfew time :)) oh man, i am looking forward to it!

My dear,
THANK YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!
You are always there for me, you saw me through those dark times and brought me back to light.
Sharing many many little secrets between us, bickered, laughed till we go breathless, studied till the verge of giving up, played KKO GB DOTA till sunrise, shop till you wana go home and rest, chatted until the evil side, and of course waited for me for DAYS! :)
All the boo boos we had were forgiven, forgotten.
Sealed with a kiss, a hug and a promise...
I WILL NOT CRY AGAIN! I shall be the happiest happiest happiest girl everyone has ever seen :D
Till the end, we will always be together! Lets make this come true! :)

Tres:
We / you crapped non-stop, talked all day long! :p
You are like a sister to me.. Seeing me cry, making me laugh, hiding facts from my ....... hehe
Together, we made some new friends, (that green man :s..) have common 'enemies', (chee koh peiS..) and i have helped you found many suitable 'partners' (ORANGE GUY, the guys at the void deck of blk 410, they are ALL yours to choose :D)
Like what your mum says,
I WILL ALWAYS REMAIN IN CONTACT WITH YOU! :)

Mau:
Though many stuff happened between us, lots of hurdles, misunderstandings, but nothing is going to change the fact that you are my sexy wife! haha..
YUP YUP YUP! You BETTER stay happy!
And.. We will keep in touch! :) I am gonna miss you!
You know what? I am considering about NP now! haha.. Should i go or not? But the first intake is like only 40 students.. hmm..

LL:
FELLOW MATE IN NEW SCHOOL! Lucky theres you, if not i also dont want to go to school! :)
See you at 7 at pp mrt. I will wake you up at 6 if you want! :) haha..
Your dramas never fails to bring smiles to our faces! Keep up the good work! :p
I am blessed to have known you :D lets go recess together and msg each other! haha..

Lynn:
We can talk for long about SA! haha..
Hope you can go into SA man..
Cheer up, better happy! :)

DEL DEL:
My another lover in class. I have complicated relationships! haha..
Thanks for your christmas card! Didnt have the chance to send you back one! Do it next year ok? hehe.. Card exchange programme!
Stay happy in the many days to come! :)

KAKA:
RIVAL! DONT SNATCH MY WIFE AWAY I TELL YOU! Or else i shall come after you with a chopper! Chop chop chop! :p hehe..
Your fertile imagination leads far far away into the future.. With all the BIG boobs, saggy boobs, long, thick bushes of armpit hair.. okok.. Better stop here..
Stay happy too! :)

Jeanie:
You never fail to make teachers 'afraid'! OOPS! (i dont know how many are going to come after me)
LETS TALK CHINESE! Coz, we are the CHINA people! :D
Stay together in love with red! :)

MD:
I never forget that your face would always turn red easily! :)
You too, BETTER BETTER try to be happy! :D
Smile more.. Laugh more..
(when can help me change my blogskin? hehe)

The people sitting behind:
We will always 'revolt' when we cant hear or when theres.. FREE PERIODS!
Its nice being with you people!
Wish you all the best of luck in whatever you do!

LOVE YOU ALL!!
Once a friend, always a friend :)

CHI-NA`

2006-12-13T18:18:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY HEY
i managed to get hold of a computer :) therefore, i am here
china has been great so far (except the mountain climbing part :s)
guess what?
i am speaking chinese 24/7
woah.
im becoming a true chinese person :

sexy messaged me when i was in china. (that was kinda unexpected though, BUT it was soooo sweeeettttt! :D )
though we may not see each other that much now, this doesnt mean that we are drifting apart... you are always remembered by SAMANTHA WONG! :) yup yup!
you must tell me when and where you work k? i will go find you whenever i can :) hehe.. i promise
WAHAHAHA! (i bought you something that will make you remember of your childhood days.. we all are young at heart :p)
MUST TELL ME WHERE YOU WORK! then i can pass you your present too! :) MUST MUST MUST!

ohoh.. i gtg now!
dinner time..
i think i am getting fat man.. :s

2006-11-17T20:19:00.000+08:00

BLOG REVIVAL!!!!
its been a very very very long time..
hello blog!
hey-lo everyone!
samantha is back! :)

1st day after Os.
i feel i had never ever been this lazy until today
:s
i wana something more exciting more thrilling to do!
ugh!
i cant wait till chalet
i cant wait till holidays

on the last day of Os
MAU dear gave me a letter
WOOHOO`
i was shocked at first.. haha.. first time you are giving me a letter, my sexy!
tralalalala
YUP! i was touched after reading it man!
i am melting like butter!
awwww..
i feel like giving u lots and lots of KISSES and HUGS now! :)
though we will be going to different schools in future,
but..
LETS GO FOR VOLLEYBALL TRAININGS TOGETHER!
and many many more :D
May our friendship be forvever!
love ya woman!

2006-10-11T22:48:00.000+08:00

MY PRELIMS ARE OVER! :)
finally.....
have to cut down on my careless mistakes
haha..

ALL THE BEST FOR O LEVELS!
shall go mug more! :)

2006-09-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

wow! its been long since i last came here.
YUP! and loads of things happened in my life.

first, its prelims.
i think, i haven put in my best yet.
hmm..
i need chicken essence!
i'm now so 'sick' of the papers.
ARGH.
i just want all of this to end, as soon as possible.

secondly, i became famous!
WAHAHA!
someone actually used my photos as her display pic at friendster!
how 'cool' is this?
first time, i ever encountered something like this..
i am someone's idol! *starts dreaming*

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=15988913
check her profile out! :s (i got sick upon seeing it though.it just gives me the creeps.)

would someone be so 'desperate' as to impersonate others' pictures as her own?
this is a really weird world we are living..
and i shall..
KEEP ON TAKING GROUP PICTURES NOW! haha..

yes kelvin. i remembered your advice.
i shall STAMP all my personal pictures and put a copyright symbol. :)
ARGH!
friendster :S

2006-08-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

MOTIVATION!
MOTIVATIONAL TALK!

the talk was real fun.. BUT,
i wished that the talk was held months ago?
now, its kind of late..
but still,
I HAD GREAT FUN! :))

I LOVE JAWS!
WOOOHOOOO~
*munch munch*

2006-08-19T18:24:00.000+08:00

i'm bored and slacking right now.

what shall i do?

i feel so un-motivated.

but, i know..
I MUST STUDY! I MUST!

oh man.. im bored.

2006-08-09T12:05:00.000+08:00

kelvin keeps asking why i am so moody these days..
SORRY LUNG BOY! didnt mean to :)
lots of things happened these few days.
ESP AT HOME!

yes yes.
quarrels, bickerings. loads of them.
parents taking out their frustrations on their child.
parents showing bias-ness over the smallest.
oh well
HECK them!

and thats what i'm doing.
now..
you both say i am being rude, i am getting from bad to worse, pretending to be deaf blah blah blah..
WTH.
what do you guys want me to do?

do you people understand me in the first place?
ITS BECAUSE OF YOU ALL WHICH RESULTED IN WHO I AM
i dont wish to talk at home.
before i open my mouth, all i have was SCOLDING SCOLDING and MORE SCOLDING

do you people know what i'm thinking?
all you all care are RESULTS!
how many As, Bs or Cs i scored.
i wana chill out on weekends, but you forbidden me stating that i MUST study.
i know, i MUST STUDY HARD. but, even machines have to rest. i needa a break too!

why cant you both be like other parents?
why cant you both be understanding and let me do what i want?

I HATE TO SEE YOUR LONG FACE EVERY MORNING!
I HATE IT! :(

sometimes..
i just feel like running away..

2006-08-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

finally something to write on!

loads of things had happened over the days. yes. LOADS

tiring and boring week of getting back and going through test papers.
( now i know 1 advantage of having national exams! )
well.. all i could say was, i did pretty well, but theres room for improvement though.
'the grades are there, but not the marks'

SS, was the ULTIMATE demoralising paper.

felt kinda sad, happy, ...
everything is just mixed up together, like a snow ball..

TO SEXY:
cheer up :) dont ever let THEM pull you down, or make you upset!
they are not worth your tears!
also, just be true to yourself, your own conscience is what all matters.
stay VILIGANT! :p your fish is somewhere out there, waiting for you
God has planned someone a millionth time better!
i would always be by your side :) *HUGS*

I AM 16 :)

2006-07-20T16:50:00.000+08:00

19 JULY! finally the day came..

presents presents presents!

thanks people :))) love ya all

oh ya! BOWLING WAS FUN! ( but my hand hurts now..)

ok heres the quiz.. i was asked to do

7 things i plan to do before i die:
1. KAROKE
2. ICE CREAM MARATHON
3. SHOPPING
4. STAY AT THE COUNTRYSIDE
5. SURFING
6. FIND MY BURIAL GROUND
7. BUY COFFIN

7 things i can do:
1. SMILE :))
2. TALK
3. CRAP
4. EAT
5. JUMP
6. WALK
7. RUN

7 things i cannot do:
1. write with both of my hands at the same time
2. swim 20 laps straight
3. let a spider crawl all over my hand
4. eat bugs
5. see a ghost movie without closing my eyes
6. call for the rain to come
7. play 3 games of bowling

7 things that i say most often:
1. hello
2. samantha (my name)
3. byebye
4. have a nice day
5. see you
6. take care
7. God bless

7 things that attracted me to the opposite sex:
1. HIM :)
2. hes hair
3. the way he carries himself
4. his smile
5. chemsitry
6. his attire
7. the way he talks

7 celebrity crushes:
NIL

7 people i want them to do this:
1. samantha
2. samantha
3. samantha
4. samantha
5. samantha
6. samantha
7. samantha

2006-07-08T20:48:00.000+08:00

what a day!

went to play badminton with mum, brother and teresa!

exercise those muscles! (its been long..)

the worse was that i was chased by a dog??

JUST MY LUCK :s

i 'HATE' DOGS :(

YOUTH`

2006-06-30T16:37:00.000+08:00

had youth day celebraion in school today during the last two periods.

though the concert has lil items, but its nice :)

14 more days to mid year!

I LOVE YOUTH DAY! (monday is a school holiday!)

end

2006-06-24T07:19:00.000+08:00

holidays are coming to an end soon.

soo fast :s

bad mood

2006-06-12T19:07:00.000+08:00

i am just back from my Batam trip! :)
its not bad, quite fun.
esp the part when i went for a hair treatment + styling session
i am gona go back there someday..

i am feeling a lil down right now.
my bro just have to keep on irritating me.
GREAT.
how i feel like smacking and spanking him!
hes too spoilt and pampered.
its a pity.
why do i have such a brother like him?
i wonder sometimes.

someone, please cheer me up!
i feel my life is going to a waste..
CHEER UP SAMANTHA, CHEER UP!

i wish i could..

MOVIES!

2006-06-04T09:01:00.000+08:00

OH MAN! theres sooo many movies i wana watch!
i wish i have all the time and money..
MOVIE MARATHON! :s
if there's someone to accompany me

sick`

2006-05-31T19:12:00.000+08:00

I HATE FLUS! :s
esp when your nose gets all blocked up and you cant breathe..
but just gasp for air.

I HATE FLUS! :s
i cant talk properly, cant eat fast food..
all i do is sleep!

I HATE FLUS! :s
someone..
cut off my nose please?

i certainly do hate flus! :s

hols are kind of boring though..
WE HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL
THROWN WITH TONS OF HOMEWORK

oh well..

anyway.. tomo is kelvin's birthday..
so..
.
..
...
HAPPY 16 BIRTHDAY KELVIN! :)

X - MEN

2006-05-29T18:18:00.000+08:00

the day, after today..
NO MORE CHINESE LESSONS ( for the time being)!

its MT o levels today..
i hope i score well though.
then, i shall not need to retake chinese! :)

O LEVELS.
the word sound scary..
but..
actually, its just a revision of MOSTLY sec3 stuff
know your facts..
and thats it!

i am glad, chinese is finally over!
after a week of drilling..

went to watch X - MEN with teresa.
wow!
it involes lots of fighting and stuff.
guess wad
the whole theatre was pratically filled with guys.. :s
perhaps.. its a guy show..
anyway..
WE HAD LOADS OF FUN! :)
(shall upload some pictures we took, someday) :p

AWWW..
had to go back to school tomorrow...

min da's house

2006-05-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

went to chill out at min da's house after school.

WATCHED SAW!!!!!!! ( not that scary, as i pictured it to be..kind of bloody.. :s)
*prays* that i do not vomit my lunch out

and..
THANKS AUNTIE FOR TREATING US TO DUCK RICE! :)

definitely! i had a great time with reen, swee, min and jin!

ONE OF MY BESTT DAYYSSSS!!!!!!!!!!

ok. days are passing real fast.
in a couple of days, its..
CHINESE Os!
OH MAN!
wish me all the best people! i am going for it! :)

STUDY HARD too!

friends

2006-05-21T13:29:00.000+08:00

my life is changing.
i feel kind of happy, carefree now.
great friendships, i have :)
here are some of them..

MAUREEN-
yup, we been through those rough times.
i am glad, they are all over :) real sorry for those nasty things i said in the past.
FRIENDS forver yea? no matter what, i am always willing to hear you out!
really like the present, when we always sit behind together crapping with the rest :)
everything isnt that bad after all.. its best not to have a clique sometimes yea? :p
I LOVE YOU! :p hehe..

TERESA-
you were the first one who saw my tears dropped.
thanks for being there for me ALWAYS! i am real blessed to have a good friend + neighbour like you! rock on! lets have our study group almost every night! go zoo, go kbox, go hong kong and many many more! YUP! :)
you are the BEST! (mr lovelock is YOURS!:p)

PO CHUN-
no matter how many countless "love letters" you wrote to me, we can NEVER be together.
yup yup! but, i will always be your friend. no worries! :) may you stay happy always! and find your true love soon!

MIN DA-
with you sitting behind, kind of fun. the latest in thing, bending the spoon. WOOT! continue trying! you will soon be one of the pros! no sweat! ( i am making FULL use of your skin right now :p)

SWEE HAO-
dont be stressed up! just relax sometimes! i teach you chem ok? you teach me spelling : jkjk! dont worry! you are doing fine now.. continue to work hard! :) i am sure you can make it! way to go!

BERT-
we are busy people.. but.. you will NEVER be forgotten! YUP! :) just wana let you know that.. you are being treasured by ME! :) STUDY HARD! ( no more playing com games!) STUDY STUDY STUDY!

i am lazy to write all.. BUT, no matter what happens..
I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER ALL OF YOU!

gone

2006-05-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

gone is the school week!

another one is going to come.. chi intensive.. CHI ALL DAY LONG!
i wonder, how can i survive?

oh well.. *shrugs*

INDEED, I HAD A GREAT DAY TODAY! :)
THANKS PEOPLE!
without you all, i wont be smiling.

first, got kind of frustrated and fed-up in the morning. its like.. JW is our classmate? cant just help him abit? what if you were in JW shoes? sometimes, i feel you are overly "law-abiding"? (cant 'blame' you, lest everything turns bad)
THE SCHOOL IS LOSING DIRECTION! what for bother about such little things? i rather they focus more on results, academic work. dentention b'coz we forgotten to collect a form? a waste of time..

second, played *** **! YUP! super FUN! its been a while since i last played that :) WEEEEEE` do it again everyday? :p ate t*******! woah~

third, crapped with my usual group of people :) THANKS GUYS! yup! you all made my life more interesting, b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l sitting behind is fun!

I GOT THE SAW DVD!!!!! gona watch it! SO EXCITING! cant wait...

I LOVE God! :)

test

2006-05-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

did my ke qian 3 minutes..

kind of nervous.. like speaking chinese in front of so many people?

but come to think of it, i felt its kina fun now :)

BUT!!!! li lao shi said i was like..
A PRIMARY SCHOOL KID READING CHINESE!
i sounded like? oh great!
MUST SPEAK MORE CHINESE!
chinese campaign for me..

TODAY MARKS A SPECIAL DAY TOO..
the LAST LAST LAST revision test for maths..
i am gona miss it.. after every week of doing TYS ques.. now there no more?

1 day closer to O levels..

thankks

2006-05-15T18:31:00.000+08:00

WEEE~ new blog skin! :)

SPECIAL THANKS TO : MIN DA!

CROSS! :) I Love God!

lonely

2006-05-03T16:44:00.000+08:00

there are lots of lonely people..

"some really feel like ending their life, disappearing into thin air".
sometimes life is real unfair.

"then how about money? how about love? I lost my money in buying TOTO this monday. I am able to see something ahead in the future. Nobody accepts me as their classmate. I even tried my best to be friendly."

"I dont feel like living in this country, but my father do not allow me to go away.I didnt hear anybody say my good things before. I was really really sad."

"I heard many of my classmates talking bad about me. I dont know why. Maybe i did something wrong? I am very upset, and my soul is gravely hurt."

its real sad to hear this.. since we are fellow classmates, why cant we accept him? Yes, he is different. But, in actual fact, EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT. I agree. Sometimes, some actions of his may seem foolish, but.. everyone is special isnt it? We all express our emotions differently. He is just a norm person too. Like he is not short of 1 ear, eye or something. Does it even hurt to treat him better? NO! What the point for being mean to him?

Remember r-e-t-r-i-b-u-t-i-o-n.

night study

2006-04-29T07:49:00.000+08:00

NIGHT STUDY was so dam fun :)

i learnt alot from it!

shall go next week too!

( i cant wait till next saturday..)

i love God!

2006-04-27T18:48:00.000+08:00

it really did rain in the morning today!

Thanks God! :)

seemed like my prayers were answered.

was real happy!

anyway.. why do they want to have NAFA? esp the 2.4km run?

i hate running long distances :

SO EXCITED!

tomorrow is friday!

last day of the week!

i am looking forward to the lONNGG weekend!

going overseas? maybe..

night study os on tomorrow..

i hope it will be great :)

long

2006-04-21T20:38:00.000+08:00

its been long since i last came here.

had nafa 5 items today!

tiring.. BUT, i am happy with my scores!

scared of the 2.4km run (no stamina)

anyway..

I LOVE MATHS! :p

school

2006-04-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

school is getting a little boring, i feel..

I NEED SOMETHING SPECIAL! :s

hurt

2006-04-04T15:30:00.000+08:00

my calves hurt!

could feel them pulling apart..

what if they come out??

oh man..

and its raining now..

TIME FOR NAP :)

TODAY

2006-04-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

saturday..

i feel my saturdays had become boring day

'saturating' at home..

i am trying to find a saturday programme..

haiz..

boring saturday..

central

2006-03-31T13:56:00.000+08:00

having chinese lessons at central is certainly FUN :)

church

2006-03-26T08:00:00.000+08:00

WEEE`

church was certainly FUN yesterday!

sang my whole heart out!

had a memorable time with teresa and ying qi

"we 3 lamer people"

the fun never stops with them around

i hope to go out with them again :)

Dear Lord Father,
i pray for everyone to be happy
i pray for those i know to be healthy
i pray for the person who took teresa's wallet to return it
i pray for many good days ahead
Dear Father,

in Jesus name i pray,
Amen.

( i shall read the bible cover to cover! ) OOSH!

night

2006-03-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

its was fun at night..

had a fright when i was walking back home..

imagine a hand just hit you from behind :

i love TONIGHT!

and.. i love my PET :)

weekend

2006-03-24T13:59:00.000+08:00

finally, after 5 days of slogging my guts out, BREAK is here! :)

always looking forward to this day man.

FUN. EAT. SHOP.

WHOPEE!

well.. this week came and went super fast.

o levels are coming!

ARGH!

but..

just take every step as it comes by..

putting in hard work, there will be results!

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!

and last of all..
happy birthday swee hao! :)

jjfghd

2006-03-20T18:03:00.000+08:00

planning ahead for my future! WEEEEEEE`
its fun to imagine.
had marriage 'course' today?
kind of fun:)

also, get to know, something which i never had expected..
ohoh.. its really hard to imagine it happening!
but it did..
CHEER UP man!
why bother yourself over such small matters?
its not worth your time.
be happy!

should i go australia?
i feel like..

my friends

2006-03-19T13:01:00.000+08:00

people that revolve around me.

2006-03-19T12:12:00.000+08:00

5 of our best times together in one.

come to think of it, times flies very quickly..

now, i am almost reaching 16. WOW!

thats fast, i should say.

was reading maureen's blog again a while ago.

well.. she made it sound like everything's was due to me? and me only?

WHATEVER. no wonder people said time can prove anything.

our so-called 'best friends' is actually a NAME. a title. UNBELIEVABLE! i am amused.

means nothing much. now, it has no valuable moments, it's meaningless.

she mentioned she had found a new set of friends. CONGRATS then. we the OLD set just *POOF* disappear, vanish into thin air.

fine then. i shant regret. i shall carry on with my life as usual, now without her so much in the picture.

i will of course treasure those who had came to play a part in making my life on earth, in making it more meaningful. life can never be better.

thanks a lot guys.
the route of life, is a long and tough journey.
i am glad to have you all by my side. :)
sorry to those, whom i had made you all angry or upset.

2006-03-18T23:15:00.000+08:00

had chem tution :)

quite fun.

learnt new stuff as usual..

working hard. thats what i am trying to do.

i hope this year ends fast.

I CANT WAIT TO LEAVE!

alooft

2006-03-18T08:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday, wasnt a bad day.

went 'party' with teresa at seng kang

found her a new 'boyfriend'!

MRS LOVELOCK :p

aint they sweet together?

hehe..

disappointed

2006-03-16T19:03:00.000+08:00

No more seoul garden.

i missed it..

oh well.. another time then..

felt a lil disappointed, sad.

days of planning, and waiting..

but.. everything came to nought?

i shouldnt had anticipated too much.

too much anxiety isint good either.

if its not going to work out,

that anxiety would burst like a balloon.

its like bringing you to the top of the world..

and pushing you back down..

all the steam is gone now..

fuck.

shall study hard tomorrow then :)

learnt something new today

if a person asks you where you stay,
just tell them..
"i stay at my mother's house"

if a person asks which blk you stay at,
just tell him
"blk 78720935"

confirm plus guarantee

that person just shuts up *zip*

weeee

2006-03-16T09:38:00.000+08:00

gona get seventeen card! :)

and i got it!

2006-03-12T22:09:00.000+08:00

hols are offically starting!

OH MAN! :s

its soo dam close to the chinese Os now..

*cold feet

must speak chinese from now on..

SPEAK TO ME IN CHINESE PEOPLE!

:))

cant wait to work next week!

haha.. though its some flyer job :

but, it should be FUN!

excited man!

wonder whats this week gona bring me..

SEOUL GARDEN! ORCHARD! ICE SKATING! ZOUK! BUGIS! KOVAN!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE`

sounds like fun!

day

2006-03-10T21:03:00.000+08:00

FINALLY THE LAST DAY OF THE TERM!

slogged for 10 weeks, but just to get 1 week in return?

hmm.. a week is fast..

WAAA..

i dont want time to past soo quickly!

*hold on to the hands of the clock*

i miss my childhood..

things to do for the hols
1) do finish ALL homework ( including eng)
2) study hard
3) shopping
4) work ( flyer distributor)
5) PLAY! :)
*ps ZOUK is on the 16 march! haha..

screwed up

2006-03-07T16:11:00.000+08:00

had mass skipping for the interclass competition.

nothing much to say.

its just that, its

1. screwed up
2. unorganized
3. totally unfair towards US?
4. what fun? no fun at all..

its just that we would not wish to lose our cool, or talk back.
everything that happened, was it fair?
NO.
that item was really a disaster?

soo much for wanting to build up the class spirit for us.
but.
NO THANKS MAN.
you spoilt it.

at school

2006-03-06T15:33:00.000+08:00

maybe its true..

lots of hard work have to be put in before you see resuts.

but.. who would not shiver or question themselves? why must we do this? life is so difficult!

i guess i am rather afraid of the future right now. i am not motivated! dun feel like studying blah blah blah. OHOH! die!

days are just passing by so quickly. less than 200 days more to my BIG day! woah. careful man.
need to find that force to push me. AHHH! someone just drag me, push me along! quick quick!

a student life is scary. how i wished i was born in the 1970s. haha.. carefree, stress-free! WEEEEE` everything is way too demanding. wheres my childhood? all i know of are books, school bags, and where to buy stationery..

*( who is creating a study group? count me in too! haha :) )

FINALLY!

2006-03-04T07:10:00.000+08:00

its finally end of the school week!

*smiles widely

saturday seems a good day ahead for me!

lots if stuff happened.. as usual

"life must be full of ups and downs, to make it more interesting."

came across this website.

taught me the evil doings of the Bible.

isit true?

o well..

i still believed in God. :)

nothing is going to shake my trust in him!

Amen.

HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE!

thanks guys :)

2006-02-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

everyone is changing..

isint it?

people whom you once think is good turns evil, bad, cruel, greedy now..

the ugly side of humans.

i guess i dont understand you.

why must you be like this?

you have changed!

whenever i see you, i felt that you were like a stranger to me.

you seemed so far away.

you were so near, yet so far.

evolution maybe?

will you be back to normal?

*sighs*

THANKS GUYS FOR HELPING MAKE MY BLOG :)
specially to delia and kelvin!
rock on man!

life suxs

2006-02-20T19:08:00.000+08:00

being fuck-ing-ly accussed for something i never do.

WTH.

all that happened is always and NEVER my brother's fault.

scold me, all you want.

i am blocking out my ears.

one ear in, one ear out

one of these days, i am just going to walk out of that door!

live by myself!

cant wait to save enough money!

i tolerated you all for 13 years.

all you both have in your eyes is that papmered, spoilt child of yours, that sickening brother of mine!

FINE! he shall be you both the only child!

take it that i had never existed.

take it that you have never bore a daughther!

I AM DEAD! find me at the grave yard.

you all said that i called someone FAN- STAR chat to chat.

CRAP!

get a life! you both dont know me! not even a single bit! all you all do is scold scold scold.

mothers and daughters have something sort of telepathy between them.

but mine?

HAHA.. FAR FROM HAVING.

the moment she sees me, SCOLD NAG SCOLD NAG!

i am SICK and TIRED of you!

get lost!

get out!

get lost!

disappear forever!

my home is just a place to provide me with shelter when it rains.
when it reacehs 6pm, silently i will just crawl into my bedroom.
alone i face the walls, taking them as my companion through the long night..

why must my life take such drastic changes?
how i wish to grow up faster!
OWN HOME. OWN PLACE. OWN WORLD.

the love in my house, around me had long flew away.
promising itself, never to come back again.
and me,
i am finding a somewhere where there is a place just for me..

blessed

2006-02-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

today was one of my BESTEST days in my life.

never had a sooo heart-warming dinner for a very long time :))

went crystal jade to eat!

YUMMY! the xiao long bao, the la mian, the red bean pan cake.. wooooo

i wana go back there again!!

CRYSTAL JADE CRYSTAL JADE CRYSTAL JADE CRYSTAL JADE

then went to check out a few cool handphones

i was spinning in my little own world then

the models are SOOOOOOO freakin` nice :

if i was rich..

WAHAHA! the phones would have be mine!

but.. its ok.

i am happy with my current model too! :)

no change for now..

never felt this happy for a long time..

today shall always be remembered by me.

how i wish ths day would never ever end..

____________________________________________

shucks man! the evening was great.

but it came with lots of hard work behind :

STUDY STUDY STUDY

"your O levels are coming, dont go out! stay at home and study."

this sentence keeps on appearing..

my skin is going to lack of vitamin D soon man..
no sunlight, stay under shelter the WHOLE day..

i am gona be nerdified soon!

all i shall think about now is,

study study study..

i wish o levels come faster, end faster,
HAPPY FASTER :)))

2006-02-16T19:32:00.000+08:00

school was kind of boring today.

nothing much happened actually.

i wana miss school for one day..

get a break..

get away from everything..

school has nothing much for me to look forward to..

i dragged my feet as i walked to school each day..

its boring..

SUXS man..

always

2006-02-12T07:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday.
i went out happily to go SHOPPING :) with one of my bestest bud!
teresa rocks! :p
we reached ps and started our spree there..
within a short 30 mins, we bought a shirt and a skirt!
fast fast fast!
next, we headed to hereen
COOOL! :) bought loads of stuff there too!
YIPEE!
i shall now save money for a handbag..

ate at crystal jade!
DELICIOUS!
xiao long bao xiao long bao! :)
the juice simply flows out when you bite into it!
was freaking full after that.

went to meet li min and marisa..
as usual, we laughed and joked!
sista, sista, ..
FUN TIME! :)

but..
as though dark clouds hung over us..
min min and i were AGAIN 'left behind'.
you all went to watch movie, what about us?
did you ALL ever thought that we had a date to go out together?
NO! you all expected that we go find you all there..
SUXS man..
always like that..
plan already, say once you are done, you will call us.
DID YOU?
we called you, then you say you all were going to watch movie :
WTF!
next time, i think i will SERIOUSLY think twice about going out with you all..
this is DEFINITELY not the first time.
i rather stay at home and study
at least it is better than wasting my time hanging about in town
DOING NOTHING!
yesterday evening was boring.
boring boring boring

saying sorry doesnt mean anything, anymore..
how many sorries do you want to say, when your mistakes are always the same?
pang seh us..
i HATE it!

all i know..
true friends are really hard to come by
i will treasure my real TRUE FRIENDS!
who were
ALWAYS by my side without fail,
ALWAYS have time for me
ALWAYS willing to hear my problems
ALWAYS encouraging me to go on
thanks a lot :)

yesterday evening really spoiled our mood.
luckily i had li min :)

hopes dashed. dreams gone.

2006-02-08T19:08:00.000+08:00

well its been a BAD week for me..

rather saddening.
filled with remorse and regret.
why would things turn out this way?

we played our best, didnt we?
all we wanted was to win and get into the next round.
that was our common goal.
but why?
why we lost?
i dont get it.
am i dreaming?
everything turned out to be a nightmare.
i want to wake up of it!
please wake me up!

i know i am just running away from reality.
after seeing lynn soooo sad today,
really pains my heart!
lynn cheer up yea? :)
we shall go some cc and play volleyball!
join comepetitions! win all of them!
its not your fault..
dont blame yourself..
whats past, just let it past :)

i HATEed to remember how disappointed mr ng looked.
how coach looked.
FATE really SUXS sometimes..

i felt sorry, just to see my FOUR years of 'gruelling' training just came to nought.
all gone.
somehow, i wished that time could just be turned back.
WHY? whats happening?

quiet

2006-02-02T17:29:00.000+08:00

these days.

i dunno whats wrong with me.

maybe i got possessed or something?

i feel, i am no longer my old self.

now. i dont feel like opening my mouth to talk..

i lost all my smiles and laughter.

perhaps, something is missing.

the mood isnt there.

all i wana do now is to stay at home, dont go to school.

get buried by all my books ( english, geography, maths, science, chinese)

STUDYING. thats what i wana do

whats the meaning of life now?

i wonder.

everything is changing..
nothing will ever be the same again..

seoul garden

2006-01-23T19:37:00.000+08:00

went seoul garden today!!

woooot`!

was dammm FUN, heart warming man

enjoyed it!!

tra-lalala..

even some people from other schools were also there *wink wink*

MADE NEW FRIENDS!

woooo` SEXY!

even celebrated some stranger birthday too! :)

had real lots of fun!

one of the happiest days i ever had!!!

lalalala..

thanks guys!

tomo got match..

scared..

having butterflies in my stomach :

things

2006-01-19T21:33:00.000+08:00

lots of things happened..

some bad some good..

hmm..

if life is sweet.. that would be great

i wont get to see people in despair, in tears..

first. i fell sick!
GOSH! this is the WORSE among all man!
SICK!
sleepless nights, and stuff.
hated it man..
haiya..

second. my maths tests.
dunno why eveytime get sooo low :
hmm..
TYS helps?
i am getting to wonder..
but..
i wana reach my target!
get into my dream school!
YUP YUP YUP!
I MUST I MUST!
STUDY!!!!

third. politics.
ppl fighting over one another.
for?
fame?
this is a dog eat dog world man.
why cant ppl be contented with what they have?

and today...
some guy asked me for my no :
LOL.
for?
ee.. :s
thats bad i suppose..
WT..

i cant wait for my o levels to end!
play! thats what i want to do now!
tired. sick.

rainy day

2006-01-11T17:06:00.000+08:00

its been raining for sooo many countless consecutive days..

STOP RAIN as my name, cant help much though..

maybe God is trying to tell me something, something which i have yet to come out.. hmm..

weird..

lots of stuff happened in school.. as usual :)

got like quite low for my A maths test man..

disappointed :s wonder what i can do to improve..

then.. COMPETITION IS COMING!!!!

OH NO! die die..

butterflies in my stomach*

school.. maybe i had lost interest in it..

it was no longer that fun as it used to be..

teachers are changing.. one by one..

320 days more to O levels..

bad bad

2006-01-05T17:55:00.000+08:00

school just reopened not long ago..

kind of use to things for now..

life has been bad..

crap! shingles is killing me..

grrr..

tang yuan

2005-12-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

went to my grandma house today.

had TANG YUAN!

YUMMY! :)

i am still going on strong on my oath!
never to break it!
thats what i promised to do!
i will be back, being a different person
no more frowns, but just smiles :)))
yup yup yup!
i can survive w/o you!
YIPEE!
freedom, thats what i always wanted
i dont want to be control nor manipulated
watch me grow.
you would be shcoked.
with every fall, i will grow stronger.
changing to be a different samantha.
one thats new to everybody
see for yourself.
:)

shopping

2005-12-20T23:13:00.000+08:00

went shopping with teresa today :)

from orchard to sommerset

weeeee`

bought quite a number of stuff

had a deal to go back heeren and taka!

shop shop shop!

shop till we drop!

yea!

had a great day!

craped till we 'made' new friends

laughed till our tummies ache

stretched our muscles till we ended up tired, sitting on the train's floor not wanting to go

life has never been this great :)

i love You!

thanks for everything You have given me!

if..

2005-12-14T08:36:00.000+08:00

ok..

out of love again?

FCUK.

i am never gona trust someone that easily anymore

what do i get in return?

just sad, despair, anger, hatred?

CRAP.

get a life!

YOU SUCK! FULL TIME!

so. you were just toying with my feelings only.

jerk. bastard. you may say.

i dont give a dam to anyone anymore

call me cold blooded, heartless

i dont care. i dont give a dam

i trust me and myself only.

wont shed a tear for you, coz it is not worth it.

take it that i HATE you

and thats real. forever

thanks everyone for being there for me.
lending me your ear, your shoulder, your company at night

i will miss you all :)

yup!

melvin, i will beat kah leong! i will concentrate in my studies! get 9 points for Os.

russ, i will be happy! you too k? didnt know we had soo much in common..

xiao yang, i wnt do silly stuff! haha.. esp go drinking with him..eeee

li min, i am ok! dont worry:) ice cream ice cream!

every fall i had, will make me stronger.

i am glad.

dont worry for me.

i am really alright.

BACK:)

2005-12-02T18:06:00.000+08:00

i am back from my volleyball chalet!:)

the days at sentosa flew past FAST

kinda miss everyone right now..

all the laughter and fun we had

though it was quite boring at times :x

did loads of crazy crazy stuff..

( didnt know the beach at night was soooo creepy)

shadows were everywhere..

like flying past our heads

then we saw someone who stood there, not moving..

FUN!

but.. the rooms are too small..

no space to accomadate all of us..

it was GREAT all the same..

i miss my cookies and cream ice cream...

the days

2005-11-28T08:44:00.000+08:00

chalet is coming!

feel so excited!

iam going town later..

lala..

hmm..

it feels weird, strange

cant bear for you to go..

clueless as to when you will be coming back

missing you already

:(

come back soon! :)

at home

2005-11-22T17:44:00.000+08:00

stayed at home the whole day.

did not feel like going out though..

however,

time seemed to fly pass quickly

in the blink of the eye

its like 5:44 pm now?

ok..

sooo TOMORROW IS COMING! :)

yipee!

tomorrow..

tomorrow..

what lies ahead?

lets wait and see..

rainy

2005-11-20T13:24:00.000+08:00

tired.

went swimming then tution

now i am bored.

with nothing to do..

happiness.. :)

HYPER

2005-11-09T17:57:00.000+08:00

wads up everybody?

had match this morning again

and..

WE WON!

feel so proud for everybody!

and we can go into the second round!

YEA!!!!!!!!! *open champange* :)

so happy!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

feeling DAMM hyper now..

also dunno why..

maybe i am still living in my own happiness

did some stupid stuff at hougang mall :

catwalk? catdance? hmm.. and.. i am sec1?

lol..

YIPEEEE!:)

ohoh.. needa go do my homework now!

SEE YA! :)

BUSTED

2005-11-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

well..

had match today..

score was 1-2..

great.. didnt know what was wrong with me man..

GOSH.. how i hope the time could go back.. could have played better, i guess..

hmm.. maybe everything was Fate?

went back feeling regretful..

had the feeling to go for a food BINGE!

WOAH!

went pizza hut with richel *wink wink*

N-I-C-E! its been long since i last ate pizza..

YUMyum! :)

really had an enjoyable time there..

we both even finished the whole container of cheese! OOPS! *looks left looks right

paid for the cheese actually though ( under service charge, tax, GST.. ahh..)

lalala.. felt full.. but who cares man?

we were out to DROWN our unhappiness!

continued with dessert!

and that is..

ICE CREAM!

YUP! yummliciaous delicious ICE CREAM!

even tried coke float! ( i made my own coke float! )

hmm.. my coke went foaming..

( in chem lesson, the results to the experiment would be..) effervescence could be seen. brown solution turned to white, forming a white precicitate.

haha.. lol.. i am READY for my titration pratical sessions! ( bring it on man! hehe.. )

happy. excited. unbelievable. spechless. crappy.

i hope we WIN tomorrow! :)

May The Lord Bless Us.

Amen.

dunno

2005-11-07T19:38:00.000+08:00

days seemed to pass fast though.

loads of stuff happened.

its like all in a blink of the eye?

and i am left stunned, dunbfounded here.

by the side, seeing my life passing by.

had everything been a wild ride or what?

was all just an illusion?

i dont know. waiting for an answer, i guess..

i dont feel like talking.

i dont feel like speaking to anyone.

i am sorry.

i am now trying to find ME.

to search for where i belong, a place that will have a place for me.

guess i need some more time.

i..i..

leave me alone. cause i think i have to stand alone to face myself.

unsure of what the future has in stall for me.

sorry..

troubled. if you could give me an answer.

gloomy

2005-11-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

went kbox today..

yea..again.. haha.. ( i am begining to be a regular customer there..hmm)

being there for like 5 to 6 times this month so far..

WOAH. not bad girl..

carry on singing till i lose my voice? ( hehe.. jkjk.. :P TOUCHWOOD)

then.. carried on to arcade!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arcade was fun! :)
( wallet safety tip : do not stay more than 2 hours, or consumer would declare bankrupt.)

played daytona and basketball!

broke a few records!

hmm.. the greatest achievement was racing..

O MAN! i cant believe this! i actually got first! like for once in history? ( wait.. am i dreaming? *pinches myself* ok.. NOPE!)

i actually got first!

YIPEE!

also.. broke our record of shootin in some baskets.. it was like 200 plus?

WA! not bad not bad..

actually improved..

felt down the moment i saw you..

its like you dont trust me or something.. the ques you ask me sometimes were a bit too far out of place.. like wads your bussiness anyway?

haiya.. i really dunno whats gotten into me..

have i changed? i wonder..

sometimes i really wonder

if having someone always by your side would be a good idea

if singlehood, but with your good friends not around

if wanting to feel loved be a better choice

really envied couples sometimes..

if i had known what to do..

public holiday

2005-11-03T13:13:00.000+08:00

its public holiday today!

dam bored..

hmm.. also dunno where to go..

aiya..

I MISS EVERYBODY!

maybe i found you..

are you the one?

hmm..

post exam

2005-10-27T13:05:00.000+08:00

had a talk about bird flu this morning..

so it is caused by A VIRUS!

woah! ( at least i learnt something new today..=p)

followed up was a mini concert..

i was INSPIRED to learn singing..

hmm.. maybe i should go..

do re mi fa so...

sounds interesting..

hmm..

I AM HAPPY! :)

if i could be like this everyday..

evil

2005-10-23T19:50:00.000+08:00

i feel like cutting my hair then throwing them all over the place..

(woo.. evil thinking.. ARGH! the devil is within me! OH NO!)

everything had been fine so far..

but i just dont seem to understand why people just like to talk about me?

whats soooooooo interesting?

THANKS A LOT to those gossipers ( go fish market and sell your fishes! )

i believe that there is retribution.. just waiting for it to befall

you all GOSSIPERS are just some no bodies!

GET LOST! get out of my sight!

KBOX

2005-10-20T18:53:00.000+08:00

today was great!

went KBOX!

after standing still for a LONNG period of time.

but with different people

now.. was 4 GUYS!

WOAH..

(couldnt get a girl friends)

but.. it was FUN!

really..

everyone was singing :)

'no shyness' around

just pure fun and laughter

KBOX`

HERE I COME AGAIN!

freedom!

2005-10-19T20:36:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! :)

over the moon..

YIPEE!

*celebrates!

haha.. i am HAPPY!

cant wait!

2005-10-17T15:25:00.000+08:00

the days are finally slowly reaching..

PLAY TIME SOON!

cant wait to go kbox

cant wait to go to sentosa

cant wait to go shopping

CANT WAIT TO GO OUT!

theres soooo many things to do..

doubt i even have enough time for rest!

hmm.. i feel so happy now :)

its like.. FRESH air is all i breathed

keeps me rejuvinated..

i found my happiness..

i found you guys..

i shall be happy all day now!

RAIN. you were there when i needed you the most.
thanks for everything..

saturday

2005-10-15T10:04:00.000+08:00

MY NEW BLOG!

woo..

i am happy! =)

haha..

a load off

2005-10-08T21:03:00.000+08:00

kk.. wad am i gona say is..

WE BROKE UP!

haha.. maureen that was our agreement yea? *wink wink*

i am gona lead a HAPPIER life. be more crappy. and LOVE everybody!

RAIN rules! yup no doubt about it. (thats the new band we created) =)

its nice to have people around you.. GOOD friends..

i treasure you all. never to leave you guys. coz, at the end of the tunnel, all i saw was you all..

so what if we broke up?
its nothing.. nothing at all.. =) i am smiling and saying this.

haha.. there are so many fishes out there why be sad over one single 'rotten' who sticks to the computer screen for ages fish?

SOME people words cant be trusted.

i HATE liars.

if you are one, please GO AWAY and never to come back. LEAVE

-RAIN-
to be with each other through thick or thin
to protect each other from the Evil World

today

2005-10-08T16:28:00.000+08:00

first thing

went swimming in the morning!

DAM COOL.

later

met up with mau shang yu and yong kang.

went cafe cartel together.

( its boring to see all these yea?)

i shall try not to go cafe cartel again..

*bleah* i feel like puking..

ate like a fat thick waffle and platter supreme?

got me all bloated up!

woof`

never gona eat these.. (hmm.. maybe i shall change my diet to vegetables and fruits! how about that?)

relationship is hitting the rough patch now..

its like.. (dunno how to describe)

i hate having that feeling.. and i dont wish too

but.. sometimes.. it really make me wonder

if i was your 'spare tyre'.. to call on me when you are bored

reallly broke my heart when i heard that sentence..

wish i wasnt there at that time

now i know why people say ignorance is a blessing.

as i sat alone wondering why the person i like wasnt the one talking to me..

insomina

2005-10-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

cant sleep again man..

BUT

i am enjoying the every minutue i have!

WEE-PEE!

soo0o00o0 fun!

though you didnt talk to me or what

i am just gona find people to talk too..

GET A LIFE MAN!

i hate you..

TRUTH

2005-09-27T15:27:00.000+08:00

its been long since i last came by.. o well.. lots of stuff happened real quick..

i laid on my bed last night. Staring at the ceiling(i think i ought to paste some stickers there.. kind of boring looking at plain white)Mulling over thousands numbers of thoughts. Were you serious? Or do you treat me as a child play-thing? Only to cast me aside when you grown tired. Would my choice be to leave?

Where was the real you? At the past? Or the present now? I prayed for the supernaturals. Hoping to get a sign from them. What should i do? Continue to wait in silence? A heart hopeful, filled of hopes that tomorrow would be a better day? If i had pyschic powers.. If i could look into the future..

I hate the nights. When my phone keeps beeping, but at the other end.. it wasnt you.. Not you. Its never gona be you.. The feeling is like happiness with emptiness then nothingless.

Will everything change? If a revolution comes by.. Or a 360 turn..

Anyway.. i am gona go soon.. I like my friends here.. BUT.. sometimes things are just too much too take.. i need a breather. i am finding my sanctuary.. i hope that day comes soon..

i cant stand it here anymore..

happy

2005-09-17T19:16:00.000+08:00

happy today!

can use the NET and go out till late!

YEAP!

*in all smiles and laughter*

and i LOVE everybody!

haha..

actually...
you aint that bad as what they say..

i sticking to my choice

not ever to leave you..

haha..

aspirations..

2005-08-26T13:51:00.000+08:00

I had been searching. Searching for that something missing in my life. Seeking for that smile, which would stick to my face all day. Finding that spark, which would burst me into flames and keep me running on - for a brighter future ahead. Where's that something i lacked?

I often looked up to the sky. My soul lost in between the many layers of clouds, to look for a clue, an answer. As though,I was stranded in my self - created maze, having to find my way out myself, alone.

But.. All i wished for was someone to always be with me. Someone who would take me to see the wonders of the world. Someone whom I could share my innermost feelings with.. Are these too diffcult to ask for? Or, had my that someone disappeared from the face of earth, never to be seen again?

Piles of romance stories, mythologies, fortune telling sat and went on my bed. I was like a beast trying to devour all i could, trying my best to absorb the essence within.

Drifting from castles, to rivers then seas. Trying to find a face which i belonged. Where a hand would comfort me and tell me everything would be fine the next day. Where a smile could take away all my worries and troubles from my face.

Where would be my paradise? Who would be the special one? Could that be me? i wonder..

sad moments

2005-08-16T14:49:00.000+08:00

kind of having my down moments now..

dunno what to do..

sit there stare into space.. always lonely.. with no one to talk to..

forever jumping for joy when my handphone rings! thats the BEST moment i could ever get..

HOWEVER..

happy moments dont last long though..

going C-R-A-Z-Y getting insane!

someone get ready the woodbridge hospital's number and remember to bolt your doors at night. (sounds creepy..)

you seem to like dun give a hoot. you seem so distant and afar. you seem busy and unreachable.

maybe we are drifting away.

maybe you had a change of heart.

who knows anyway? except God.

no one knows whats running throught that mind of yours except God.

(maybe thats one reason of why i want to be a pyschologist - to be able to read minds, pyschic power)

sad..

oops! i need to go.. cya for now..

take care guys! =)

gone with the wind

2005-07-31T19:53:00.000+08:00

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you will have to make a decision. Working out to see if your roots have grown entangled together, that is inconceivable that you should ever be part of it.

if i was given a wish.
i would wish for happiness..

it would be a blessing to live everyday with smiles
who wants to be sad?
who wants to wallow in self pity?
who wants to mourn and grief over history?
nobody wants. i dont wish either.

maybe the sad season had came.
people getting upset.

i hate this!
WHY? it would be better to be a baby.
innocent. carefree. free of worries.

saddness please leave me.
go somewhere far.
disappear forever.
please.

(the above was just part of my story making) =) haha.. practising for my compo.. i wana beat myself to score higher and higher.. the next time would be 27/30!
me sad? not now. not ever going to be.
cause i found a way. my way to happy land.
i will NEVER be defeated. not rumours. not gossips.

you can say about me for all you want.
for i dont give a damn about it.
its just that you are wasting your life away.
not mentioning your brain cells!
even you could get the facts wrong!
ha-ha.. LOUSY.. (i think you seriously need to go join the 'auntie' club and be an active member. if they let you in.to brush up on your skills.. for the GOOD of your own mouth)

kk.. i think i am striken with boredom again.. ARGH!
if theres was someone here to keep me company..
no one to talk to.. except the computer screen?
(Hi computer screen! How ya doing now? thanks for being with me always.. watching me cry.. seeing me laugh.. you are the best friend i could ever find on earth!) er.. lame.. =p

o man.. its three periods of maths tomorrow
GOSH.. dead meat.. served on the table, cluttered with maths books.
i seriously need to find the force, the groove to push me on..
facing her.. its killing my taste..

i am gona be happy everyday! gona go compose more poems then.. haha..
heres one for you.. =p

You are the first thing i think of
Each morning when i rise
You are the last thing i think of
Each night i close my eyes

You are in each thought i have
And every breath i take
My feelings are growning stronger
With every move i make

ohoh.. dunno how to end.. i think of it again when my inspiration comes back.. hehe..
gone with the wind.. SOON

GET OUT of my life ; bored

2005-07-28T16:45:00.000+08:00

its been a lonng lonng time since i last came here..

everything had been a disaster for me..

days are bad and full of boredom..

school day is all about waiting for the recess bell and the dismissal bell to ring..

maybe i dont like to go to school anymore?

or perhaps i feel australia is better now..

who would want to go sch to see your maths teacher for like ALMOST the whole day?

sick and tired..

CRAP now..

like huh? all of sudden i am like the 'HOT' topic?

WAD?

sooo 'popular'

these people just dont know how to MIND THEIR OWN BUSSINESS!

busybodies. (the BRIGHT future of singpore falls upon their hands i wonder how singapore is going to survive)

maybe its the stree of the o level for them..

hmm.. like they was never taught how to control their stress using more constructive ways.. like going onto the stage to sing during assembly..

rather than wasting their time bad mouthing ppl.. BUT.. btw.. PLEASE GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT FIRST BEFORE YOU ALL POINT YOUR FINGERS.. if not the one losing face would be YOU

then.. i would be the first one to laugh my head off man! haha..

anyway.. i believe that in this world theres retribution...

bad mouth one and you get your just desserts? eg. fail your o level?

SERVE YOU RIGHT! nanny nanny poo poo

also striken with boredom now..

nothing to do?

all i do i like stare at the four walls when i get home?

life is meaningless..

all i looked forward to are the days when i have volleyball training.. (thats the BEST)

life is downright boring!

sometimes i wonder..

would my life be better? if i had left for australia?

then.. maybe.. i would not be as bored as now..

my life is going downhill..

topsy turvy all over..

ARGH!

i will not be defeated by you all. for i would still stand up tall with my smile

my birthday!

2005-07-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

i just turned 15!

YIPEE!

so happy.. got loads of presents =p

haha.. THANKS GUYS!

LLOVE YOU LOADS!

i dun wana this day to end...

hmm..

its my birthday today!

=)

yea yea yea!

little INDIA

2005-07-16T10:00:00.000+08:00

its three more days and still dropping!

YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

three more days till my birthday..

cant wait to it!

had no chem tution today..

coz papa poon =p left the tution centre together with his car keys with the car mechanic..

hmm.. there we go,to fusion for pool..

was fun there! theres always fun when i am with my best friends! =)

about about 230.. chin guan brought me to dhoby ghaut mrt station..

phew.. luckily he was with me.. or else i would had been lost! phew..

went little india.. with kim, shu xian, hui ting and misha!

FUN! saw 'tickos' *shudders

you should see the first shopkeeper..

he EVEN RAN AFTER US! to ask us where we going and sort of stuff =s

scary man..

here i am at home now..

time really passes fast..

i am bored to death here..

why must my life just only surround the four yellow walls, and waiting for your call esp on weekends?

I HATE BOREDOM!

it isnt fair..

mum said there was a space available for me at the australia school..
ohoh..
should i or not?
can i bear to leave?

if someone could give me an answer..
if someone was willing to bring me to see the sun..
if someone..
if there would be that someone..
everything would be perfect..

gona go make my visa..

saturday comes again

2005-07-09T09:31:00.000+08:00

its saturday again..

time really pass fast..

10 more days to my big day!

i cant wait..

yipeeee!

i wish that everyone will be happy everyday
i wish that all will be safe and healthy ( get lost germs! sa sa sa! kill you all!)
i wish that.. (still got wad..hmm)

kk.. just for everyone to be happy!

i am gona turn 15!

yea yea!

but 1 more year to 16..

then can watch nc16 movies..

o well..

its nice being a 'kid' too! ;)

i will treasure you all

love you loads!

the throat is sore

2005-07-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

had a bad throat when i woke up..

o GREAT!

i am proclaimed sick again..

sighs*

its killing me. its killing me.

i hate sore throats..

i cant eat

i cant drink

good bye to my favourite vanilla ice cream from now

farewell to my chocolate milk and green tea

all i have is now water!

argh.!

eating durian for two straight days is lethal to the throat!

WARNING WARNING

PLS GET AWAY FROM DURIANS

they might drop on your head, leavin you lying there

or on your feet, then your skin would be like a punctured tyre letting out blood!

EEK!

we are gona sing WU DING i guess..

=) thats gona be sososososoososososos muchhhh FUN!

YEA!

zai wu ding cang zhe ni de ge..
zai wu ding he wo ai de ren..

if you would care about me..
my throat would be better..

camp

2005-07-01T17:34:00.000+08:00

i am back from camp!

YEA!

survived 3 days 2 nights!

yipeeeeee!

now i miss the camping site..

the camp was reallly GREAT! (inspired me to be a camp instructor =p)

sang sooo much songs

did loads of coooool stuff!

i wana have a go on the flying fox AGAIN! (thats the best!)

i miss the camp site
i miss my insturctors (ismail and wei ning)
i miss the hard wooden floor
argh..

I WANA GO BACK THERE AGAIN!

i dont wana go back school....

YOU ROCK GUYS!

be4 camp

2005-06-28T15:13:00.000+08:00

gona go for camp tomo..

at the adventure dairy farm?

sleeping with cows? goats? (ohoh..)

hope not.. =p

today was kinda a nice day.

ate chocolate sweets in class.. (yummy!)

crap about..

saw the making of POPCORN (but never get to eat it..=s)

thats all i guess..

hehe..

will camp be fun? sounds boring..

ahhh.. can i not go?

be missin school and everything and everybody..

but most of all...

i will miss my bed and my dog and many many others more..=p

hmph

2005-06-23T08:37:00.000+08:00

whats the world coming to now?

with scoldings and naggings diseases and illnesses.

cant she / they just put a full stop and end everything?

here is like a battle field.

people seeing eye to eye with one another.

people lying on white sheet bed, moaning and groaning.

wheres freedom?

wheres peace?

wheres happiness?

had they all disappeared and vanished

lost and gone forever?

this is one of the days AGAIN like norm.
where my mum keeps on rattling on and on.
doesnt her mouth gets tired? nah..
this is like a regular 'exercise' to her, to keep her fit ( no wonder she is a teacher).
what gives her the right to take my phone away again?
the right that she bought it?
well. we shall see..
i am really really gona go buy a handphone and
TADA i own it and she doesnt have the rights to take it!
ha-ha..
* i am missing it the second day..

gosh!
not ever in my dreams will i ever ever dream of this happening.
OMG
gona go NUH later.
May God Bless..
hope nothing bad is going to happen..
i pray in the name of Jesus.

so healthy,
alive and kicking.
but by the next minute,
you be down lying on the bed,
battling with all the virus, diseases.
life is just so unpredictable!

life is a weird thing.. not everyone understands it..
people say its like a roller coaster.
some say its a train ride.
but..
i say..

its like a winding path through the woods,
where at some corners you see rabbits, squirrels or flowers
while at some corners, weeds and dead carcasses.

i am now walking through the dark corners
and i am really sure that i will soon see the sunlight
coz i had treasures walking along with me.

cheers to the light!
May the Lord Jesus Bless everyone in his name.

i love you guys! haha..

before i go

2005-06-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

before i go..

these are my 'last few words' that i had to say..

I AM GONA MISS YOU GUYS!

firstly.. i went to school in the morning..
for what? yup! i think you all guessed correctly
volleyball..

volleyball - did loads of stuff..
had drills.. hmm.. training didnt seem boring today..
had new games.. haha..
coach seemed to change after going to the coach course though..
wonders* ( what did he actually did there?)
he became more lively and energetic?
did i really say lively and energetic?
yea.. like he grew youunger =p
training WAS really fun! LOVE it man!

second.. was a date with my close friends! li lin and teresa!
=)
went to lido to watch mr and mrs smith..
charged into the theatre
armed with pop, na and mug ;)
the seats we chose was freakin` comfortable..
(can sit in any position you want.. not bad huh?)
enjoyed the show (most importanly. coz i paid $8 for it)
AND
the food and everything!
hehe..
then we ran to catch 105..

today was and STILL is a GREAT day!
throughly enjoyed myself to the fullest!

guess what?
i am gona leave singapore in like..
3 hours and 5 more mins?
cant wait! =) and still counting down..

3 more ddays till our 11 week!
YIPEE!
i will miss ya loads when i am away..
haha.. ( i think i will buy smth back for u =p)
hm.. but i dunno what..
love ya loads!
and i promise that..
i will NEVER ever leave you

coz i think i found my right one..

freakED!

2005-06-06T20:42:00.000+08:00

went to escape today!

WHOA! FUN MAN!

played till i dropped..

first, we went to sit the pespi sponsered ride.. (dunno whats the name..hehe)

haha.. like go up see scenery.. (all the trees and the sea) but..
ohoh.. the cartridge stared FLIPPING! omg omg OMG.. May God Bless ai mi tuo fo ai mi tuo fo

second, we caught the swing at the viking..
tick tock tick tock.. it went like the pendulum bob.. (aye.. we came to learn physics too.. dun play play ah)

third. we went to sit the family ride, the mini outdoor roller coaster..
with mr and mrs lim.. haha.. i can feel the strong marriage bond between the both of them =p

fourth! was the FUNNEST of all! yea! its the wild wild wet! the log ride..
sat 3 times with kim and joan =) in different postions.. hehe..
1st time.. kim, joan then me.. i was at the back.. at the end of the first slide, i was TOTALLY wet from top to bottom (i shouldnt had sat at the tail..) 2nd, joan, me then kim.. haha.. was wet too.. we slashed water at one another.. ohoh.. even even more more wet! 3rd.. ( God bless God bless) i, at the front, kim then joan.. haha.. wet through and through again.. screamed the hell out too! dam coool ah.. haha

then.. it was 12.. had to go burger king to do the evaluation form..
was soaked all through.. even had diffculty walking man.. as stiff as a zombie.. very cold too..

we grabbed a bite.. bacon and cheese hotdog with mustard! (first time trying this.. its deliciious!)

followed up we went to play the teacup!
screamed like mad!
haha.. fun fun FUN!

the most 'scariest' part was actually the haunted mansion
had to walk through this 'house'
wa! the ghostly being real ghostly..
while we were watching this clip..
there was this guy there at the curtain lor!
well.. i screamed at him.. haha..
served him right =p hehe..
i was actually screaming all the time in there..
( i will never ever go in there..)

*too tired to go on.. shall cut short.. =p

after that.. we went to BUGIS!
play pool?
but never sort of play.. haha
went kfc to eat..
the auntie there was chatting with us..
asking we girls not to get married?
huh?
haha.. then also tell us ALLL hospitals have ..........
eeee... i never want to go into hospitals now..

today was like one of the best days i ever had so far..
haha.. i wana go escape again! =p
haha.. i LOVE you guys! thanks alot man! (for helping..)

weeeee`

2005-06-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

woahh! went out with couz and her boyfriend =)! (was i a lightbulb? nope! haha)

went shoooppping at orchard with them..

got loads of treats from them though.. hehe..

ate ice cream at cafe cartel.. bought a necklace..

weeeeee! this day was fun!

love you both man ;)

then we walked all the way to heeren..

haha.. saw loads of peeps! and even a 'da ren wu'!

!!WOW!!

then.. had free make up?

hm.. this girl came and ask me if i wanted to..

couz then pushed mme to sit on that chair man..

dam paise..

still need to stand on stage and TAKE PHOTO!

(hides face in bag)

that make up was nice =p

hehe..

love love LOVed TODAY!

=)

chill out guys..

hehe..

BORED

2005-06-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

bored. bored. bored.

like experiencing this same feeling of boredom as if now was 3 months ago..

haiz.. i hate this..

i hate feeling bored..

=s this is total crap + bullshit!

lucky me.. i am going early.. brought forward departure date..

wont be bored anymore..

haiz.. BORED. BORING.

shucks..

tanned

2005-06-02T18:30:00.000+08:00

had volleyball training in the morning..

but i overslept and went there late *yawns*

too tired.. hehe..

training was quite ok =) fun too! drank 2 packets of milo.. hmmm.. (very filling..)

then went out with jing wen, li min, and jen to mac for lunch..

saw a woman talking to herself there?

furthermore... she was like sitting BESIDE me!

ohoh.. she 'placed' her head on the table.. took out a highlighter and started drawing and talking to herself at the same time!

maybe.. thats her way of de - stressing.. i guess..

that was like a total new and scary incident.. (one i would never ever forget.. sounds familiar..hm)

straight after.. i went back home to take up my stuff for swimming!

i just love swimming!

justkeepswimming.
justkeepswimming.
justkeepswimming.
justkeepswimming.
justkeepswimming.
justkeepswimming.

we broke our record too! one hour and 5 mins?

coooooool..

borrowed some styrofoam boards from one of the life guards there..(sometimes, its just great to know some of the life guards there.. they make swimming more enjoyable)

weeee... and i can float.. without even moving! haha..

i simply LOVE swimming! =p

wished if i could go scuba diving soon.. i longed to see those cute little fishes again!

going away in 9 days time......