Friday, December 24, 2004
christmas eve
its christmas eve! lalalala... =d do magical things happened on christmas eve? i wonder... hmm... if fairy tales do come true, if there was santa living at the north pole, if there was angels singing up in the skies above... wont all that be wonderful? =d.. its pretty nice down here.. hehe... got wind, got sea, got stars and stuff... haha... *i m tieing myself to the pillar, i DUN wana go!* hehee... jkjk... weee! i love scuba diving! haha... (shh... i am using my aunt's friend's husband's labtop...hehe.. good rite? =d)
happiness fills her heart. she was no longer that sad as ever. or was she? was she trying to hide herself? not wanting to let others see the sad, tear- stained face her? was she geniuely smiling, and saying "i forgotten all about him?" if she had known, she wouldnt had even tried to love someone so deep. it torn her heart, pierce it, shattered it. her heart... was left lying there... it became a weeping heart, always, always sad... was there true happiness in her? will she ever find happiness again? "even if one day she could laugh out loud, enjoying herself... she would be happy... "she promised herself. wheres that one day? shes waits, waiting, waited.(heres a poem she wrote)
She..
She walks along this lonely street,
no one to dry her tears.
massage her tired feet
or calm ever present fears
Seeing life through tainted heart
making everything gray
Alone,
her life,
anew to start
Always searching for a way
But life goes on no matter what
That fact she cannot quell
Memories ne'er to be forgot
Within her heart they dwell
So she keeps walking this lonely street
Keeps searching to find her way
Every night she lies down to sleep
And prays tomorrow's a better day.
why isit so diffcult to forget a person? why? is she a failure? she been moping and weeping for almost one month... why are the still memories of him? why? if she knew how to forget him... in her heart, she calls out to God, angels... "plz fullfil this simple wish of mine"...... she long wanted to fly... to feel freedom once caressing her cheeks again... all she wanted was to be happy..... she now sees the world in a different view... always making new friends, always and trying to find her happiness... and she knows, her best BEST friends will always always be there...
blessed : 6:43 AM