its been long since i last came by.. o well.. lots of stuff happened real quick..

i laid on my bed last night. Staring at the ceiling(i think i ought to paste some stickers there.. kind of boring looking at plain white)Mulling over thousands numbers of thoughts. Were you serious? Or do you treat me as a child play-thing? Only to cast me aside when you grown tired. Would my choice be to leave?

Where was the real you? At the past? Or the present now? I prayed for the supernaturals. Hoping to get a sign from them. What should i do? Continue to wait in silence? A heart hopeful, filled of hopes that tomorrow would be a better day? If i had pyschic powers.. If i could look into the future..

I hate the nights. When my phone keeps beeping, but at the other end.. it wasnt you.. Not you. Its never gona be you.. The feeling is like happiness with emptiness then nothingless.

Will everything change? If a revolution comes by.. Or a 360 turn..

Anyway.. i am gona go soon.. I like my friends here.. BUT.. sometimes things are just too much too take.. i need a breather. i am finding my sanctuary.. i hope that day comes soon..

i cant stand it here anymore..